sorry for being a loser but Chappell Roan never peaked my interest. this GWAR cover of Pink Pony Club however, is my new favourite thing.
just Blothar screaming "god what have you done" going over and over in my head. i really like his voice and love his cute piggy snout.
a few things have lined up in an amazing way and this week i have a new phone, a new laptop and a new sketchbook.
and that it's at the start of a year is even more cleansing. that delicious fresh year number and moving to a new phone and only moving over the photos taken so far this year (i saved all the other photos, i can't actually get rid of them, obviously). the phone isn't new, it's a hand-me-down from Will who had it as a hand-me-down also but it feels new and weird to me and that's what matters.
i got the laptop from the refurbished bit of ebay and i've installed linux mint onto it. i don't really know what i'm doing so i've kept windows on there for now just in case i can't handle choosing my own operating system but for now i'm feeling kind of proud of myself for trying something a bit scary. and also for having the money to just buy myself a new laptop, i worked so hard to get a part-time job last year and i work so hard to work a part-time job and now i can do things like save up and replace my laptop.
the new sketchbook is a shift to a4 again, it's been a while. a5 makes more sense honestly but every now and then a4 calls to me. it's a seawhite hardback and has a nice blue cover and i look forward to filling it up.
while i was in the art shop getting a sketchbook i also got a new pencil sharpener which might actually be the most important new thing. it's brass and it's one of those things where you don't think anything of an activity until you get to use a really nice tool and then like wow, it's so nice to sharpen pencils.
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| me with my new sharpener, sketchbook and phone taken on my new laptop webcam |
we got new carpets too, everything is lining up really weird for a fresh start right now in this exact moment of my timeline. we didn't ask for new carpets, the landlord decided that the upstairs rooms needed them so we had to comply. it's one of those things where i'm grateful to have a landlord that wants our carpets to be of a certain standard and it is nice to know that the carpets are clean and not filled with tiny bits of mould and dust but also we didn't ask for it and it was very overwhelming to have someone come in the house and make a lot of noise and new carpet smells and moving everything from one room into another room that is full of it's own stuff (and then in reverse the next week) and one of the rooms was my studio which as already mentioned is very full of stuff. full of stuff in a way that can make me feel negatively about myself, why am i not using these things, why has that sat there untouched for years...
but the carpet work is finished and now i get to unpack my studio again and i'm not just putting everything back how it was, i'm going to go through every item and only put it back if i really want to. i'll be brutal and it will be great and then i'll make lots of silly art. because it feels good.
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| it's empty and overwhelming |
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| digital photo collages from christmas eve, chrstmas day, boxing day and then the end of the year. |
i think i'm being a little overdramatic but that's fine, it's allowed sometimes. have a wallow. so long as you don't get carried away with it. don't focus on the negative version and give it any more power than it has anyway. pat it on the head and let it run it's course.
i'm struggling with job and winter but i'm paying attention to it and working on balance and i'm ok. also this year we adopted an old man baby rat boy. i love him so much.
no resolutions for the new year, i'll save that for spring and for now i will concentrate on being kind and gentle to myself and having as much nice fun creative time as i can.
at the end of July i started my new part-time job so i've been doing the job and being tired from doing the job but i'm finally starting to feel like i'm settling in.
there wasn't much photo taking or art making or anything for the past month or so but i'm feeling more settled and easing back into things so here's a few photos i did take during August and hopefully i'll be getting back to myself over the next month or so. whatever that even means, it's a big change, other things will change with it, that's kind of the point. we'll see where i end up.
Will got me a thermal camera for my birthday and it's so much fun // still packing orders and drawing on the envelopes :)
we've had four heatwaves this summer and hot days in between, this guy clearly knew about it // Mario Picross distracted me before the job started and then helped me wind down in the evenings when it did start. i've completed it now and have gone back to Mario Kart, thanks Mario. this is a great drawing of a snail.
caterpillars on the cauliflower just as intended <3 // cool clouds never get old
i'm not putting any sort of goal based expectation pressure on myself but i am looking forward to getting back to myself now that i'm getting used to the job and am naturally feeling like i want to get back to other things. i need to be drawing and making and taking photos and videos and documenting and being curious and just existing in my own little way. it's nice to be heading back in that direction.
i heard there was going to be a second series and it made me want to have a re-watch. these are all from episode 1.
i love you Bocchi <3
