week 48 2020

 

the sky's been being pretty cool lately

trying to embody the calm aura of Sesshomaru while literally anything happens to him

for a while this spider plant was losing leaves at the same rate it was growing them but it seems to be settled in now and actually just growing them. so proud.

my god this page doesn't reflect the day I was having, my brain totally had it in for me, such blank, much tears, many headache but I got through it and even did some drawing

still can't quite believe we can get vegan pizza delivered with cheese and fake meat!!

Will had a birthday <3

make a wish

I made the cake, it was pretty good!

did you know grass didn't exist when dinosaurs were about? these cake decorations are pretty accurate.

said goodbye to the strawberry patch

my scraps bag for stuffing things and throwing as little out as possible

waste not want not

innards

greeeeeeeeeen

the day a man shouted at me on the street for being brightly coloured. I wish men would shut up honestly

rooooooots, baby roooooooots

grow good little guy <3

pictures ~ august 2020

 

august was HARD

but there was my birthday and foraging and vegan doughnuts and our first home-grown tomato and sunflower babies

New Year (Birthday) Goals

Having a birthday got me thinking and it occurred to me that it's odd that with the new year comes resolutions and goals and reflection but with birthdays not so much. I mean, it's not really odd, everyone goes through the new year together so there's the companionship (or social pressure) of everyone making goals at the same time which probably helps a lot of people (and makes us hear about it) but I thought a birthday would be a good chance to reflect and focus and junk.




So my birthday goal this year is a good simple thing that I think will make my life better. I'm going to be more chill. It sounds stupid but it's not. I'm a stressed mess and I explain myself too much out of insecurity and I hold myself back in so many ways and I have a nice life and I'm letting it slide past while I think about what I need to do better or what I don't have and while I still want to work towards better things or new things I want to have actually done each day because that's all we've really got.




Everyone has problems and I don't think anyone should be comparing others or themselves in terms of better or worse for anything but I am really lucky. I'm lucky to have been born where I was, I'm lucky to be keeping a roof over my head, in the grand scheme of things I have a safe life and sometimes I feel like I've been wasting it. I just want to fully appreciate what I've got and enjoy it. I want to be more chill. I still want to get angry about injustices, I don't want to be detached from things that are actually important but sometimes things seem important and they don't need to be. I want to be happy and I want to save my energy for where it's needed, whatever that might be.



I want to just live and do whatever I want (in a not selfish way)(ok it's maybe a bit selfish but not like in a harms anyone else way). I care more about being true to myself than about what other people might think. I want to be more chill. This is my goal for my new year ^_^

My Birthday! ~ Whitlingham Broad

It was my birthday at the start of the month and I took a long weekend away from everything. My parents came to visit, I didn't work or look at social media, I just relaaaaxed. And it was so needed and good.






My birthday was the Friday and we just hung out, had cake and pizza then on Saturday we went over to Whitlingham Broad. It's just on the edge of the city so quite close to us but we've never been. It's really nice over there, I spend most of my time inside but I love nature and being out in it and picking things up and touching leaves or whatever. It's just a good satisfying time.








We also went to Mousehold Heath, we wanted to find the city view and after going to the entirely wrong section we found it. There had been a lot of fires up there because of how dry it's been but I kind of liked how some of the plants looked. Especially this one with the fluffy, non-burned bits at the ends.




All in all it was a good birthday, I had a really nice time, I was thoroughly spoiled and it's a week later and I'm still feeling refreshed and happy and productive ^_^

You can check out my video from the weekend here.

fancy cakes and new housemates

This week feels like more than a week. It started with our trip to Thrigby which feels like such a long while ago! Then on the Sunday mum and dad went home and Will and I ended my 4 day birthday with some cake decorating. We didn't really need more cake but we'd bought the bits as an activity to do on my actual birthday and didn't end up doing it. That icing slowly melted into an unrecognisable mess but it was really fun to do and for a little while they looked super cute.





I'm cutting back on crochet these days and don't have the custom banner listing available in my shop but when I get a message from someone with a cute profile picture asking if I can make another queer banner I can't say no ^_^



Then there was basically a weird mid section of the week where I sorted and tidied and panicked and then.....




....we went and picked up our new friends! Will's sister drove us out to a lovely rat breeder we found online and came home with 3 fancy rats
(♡˙︶˙♡)





Oh my gosh, we're so in love. We got three boys, two about 8 weeks and one 5 and a half weeks. They've been home 3 days and the two older ones are just about to start climbing out of the cage onto us without too much persuasion and the younger one is more nervous obviously but as a unit they're a wonderfully happy pile and are getting along great. I've not had rats before and have only had these guys a really short amount of time but rats are the best pets! They're so friendly and beautiful and I love them. They're ruining my productivity because all I do is sit there watching to see if they're up to anything, I'm staying up late to hang out with them and getting up early to catch them before they go back to sleep and it's making me delusional. I, half asleep, woke Will up last night asking him if he a rat in his hair because I thought I could see one. It was weird, I'm obsessed! But yeah, rats, they're great. I think you'll be seeing a lot of these guys round here from now on ^_^