i'd wanted to make a food zine for years and then when i finally got around to it with issue 1 it felt so discombobulated but i just wanted it done and then i've had a weird year since then and issue 2 came together a little easier but still feels a little, forced maybe? but i also feel like i know what i want this zine to be now. and i feel like i've been working on a lot of habits that will make my creative endeavours flow a bit better (fingers crossed)(it's an ongoing effort!)(that will have ups and downs, no judgement!!)
some people can plan and make all the decisions and produce something that is this fully formed version of itself straight away but i need to do things to work them out so the first two issues feel to me like they're in a pupal phase and now they've hatched and i can get on with the next one knowing what i'm doing. although i may well be here a year later with issue 3 like, uh it took ages and i got stuck on it and it feels weird lol. but right now i feel good about it :)
even if it does feel pupal stage (which doesn't mean it's bad) i still made a thing and that's always worth it.
